The time that every girl has to face in her lifetime had started in my life also. Sometimes I was rejected by the prospective groom, and sometimes the rejection was from my side. I had met so many boys, but the inner voice which gives us a signal was not coming from my soul. I remember, I went to Muzzafarnagar also regarding the same matter. I, Honey and mausi, all of us went in a taxi. The prospective groom was an English teacher and was from Christian background. We all sat there in his house. They were three brothers and the elder one was a bachelor. He asked me so many questions and then told us that they would revert back to us.

We came to know through the mediator that he didn’t like me, my dressing sense, my outlook nothing. I was very annoyed with that. I thought people were interested in outer beauty only. Then after this meeting I asked mausi and Honey to be quiet for some time. I didn’t want to get disturbed from my daily routine. But whenever I used to see couples, I used to feel frustrated, as nobody was there for me in this world to share my feelings.

One more incident I can never forget. A proposal came from Muradabad. The boy was a lab technician and his father was a Principal in a reputed school. His sister was a divorcee and his mother was a teacher. We all met. My mausi and Honey were with me. I was totally against this marriage but mausi insisted and I had to go with her. We started by 10 in the morning. Around 4 pm we met each other .He liked me and asked me few questions but I didn’t asked him any. They told us they would let us know. After dinner we went for a walk and mausi called up his mother and asked to talk to him. Then I asked him about his Education. He told me that he was still doing his graduation. That means he was not even graduate and he didn’t had any job at that time. Mausi confirmed his mother that I was ready. But I told nani that I would not marry him and nani asked mom to say no to him. His sister was just living next to our society in Delhi, The very next day was Sunday and they were coming to my place to do some ceremony but before that I said no to his mother. This proposal was also cancelled. I thought God has not given me any opportunity to become a wife of a decent person. You can also say that I thought that people of my type does not exist in this world.